The 5 stages of grieving your diagnosis. It's ok to grieve the loss of who you once were.
Having a chronic illness is hard, it's hard work, it's hard on the bank account, it's hard on your friends and family and most of all it's hard on your physical and mental well being. Throw into the mix being a parent and all this gets magnified because now you are responsible for another little human being.
Two weeks post op and unfortunately part of my wound is not healing and keeps opening up.
Despite spending the night in ICU which is always fun, tubes everywhere, lots of machines buzzing and beeping and observations every hour and nurses talking loudly I managed about an hours sleep...
The day is finally here, months in the waiting, lots of tears but the day is here. It's strange, the lead up I am anxious and feel so stressed but once the day comes a strange sense of calm comes over me.
So just one week to go till surgery and the anxiety is building. I think sometimes the lead up us worse, the fear, the stress and the anxiety of what will be.
So it's that time again, surgery time. I have honestly lost track if this is surgery number 46 or 47. But it's a big one. This one is to remove Endometriosis, repair some hernias and adhesion's and potentially remove a mass on the liver.
What has the 10 year Facebook photo challenge showed me? Well I don't look at this photo and think about the wrinkles or how much older I look, I think about what the last decade of living in constant pain has shown me.